Yes, I have been working this show since 1990 as the assistant to the musical director. I've been more involved since 2000. It's pretty fun, just a little hectic at times. Last year was really hard for me! At least all the musicians & the director knew what I was going thru & held me up when I needed it.
My H & I used to get all dressed up & go to the awards, it was so fun!!! The last few years I've had to be backstage & he couldn't go with me then, he did go to a couple of rehearsals with me.
I'm really trying to be strong b/c I do feel like I'm not supposed to give up. I'm trying not to hang on to that b/c I really don't want to keep thinking, well maybe next month or whatever. But right now I just can't give up completely. I guess I should but in my heart I can't. Do you understand what I mean? I don't think I even understand it.
Oh & by the way, True Thank you for the rain!!! LOL We are getting some from that tropical storm Faye. Some much needed rain. We do need the rain but it has also made me somewhat depressed.
I'm really trying to be strong b/c I do feel like I'm not supposed to give up. I'm trying not to hang on to that b/c I really don't want to keep thinking, well maybe next month or whatever. But right now I just can't give up completely. I guess I should but in my heart I can't. Do you understand what I mean? I don't think I even understand it.
Nlt, I understand exactly what you mean. You haven't given up hope that one day your H will return. In the meantime, move forward with your life. Try to do things that will bring you some happiness. You are sounding stronger every day. I am praying for you.
Me47 H46 S13 M16 Piecing since May/09
"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz
Yes, I am doing better. I guess I'm just going to have those down days. I'm trying to think of him not existing but it is so hard!!!!! I think about him all the time!!! But I am working on my cross stitch project so that is good.
Thank goodness we did get some rain, about 2 inches but that is better than nothing!! Now I'll have to mow the yard, but that's ok I don't mind that at all. I rather do that than water everything everyday!
My parents are going to come spend the weekend with me. I'm looking forward to that. They have a dog that I just love! Of course I don't love him any better than my dogs but he is only about a year old & they haven't had him that long. He is so cute!!! My youngest just loves him & they play so it is fun watching them.
I've been working on cleaning since my parents are coming, they think I keep it clean all the time, wrong!!!!
I am glad you will be able to spend time with your parents and the dog. You are sounding better.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
I am better at times. Today was a bad day. But I'm working on getting stronger. I can't imagine him being M to someone else & that bothers me. But I also just can't give up on him yet. Does that sound completely crazy????
I put my wedding rings on today, I miss wearing them.
