Homeward Bound!

[pisces9]

update:
my H and i went to the beach with my doggie yesterday...such a nice day for here...it was great..long walk and not a ton of talking...just calm and relaxing.
cam home- he napped- i worked a bit.
then we decided to go food shopping which was funny bc i havent shopped for 2 people in months..so i was in a weird state at the store and actually took someone elses cart that was half full..we didnt notice til we got to the register- then my H went and found our cart that was half full...we were smirking and laughing with eachother...so funny.

poor person lost their veggies...

then we came home- H rested and i worked a bit...then we made dinner and talked a lot about family stuff again. moving, etc. pros and cons of certain areas.

i said (amongst a lot of other stuff) : " i trust whatever decision you make for us. i know in the past i wouldnt really hear you and i know you are very clear as to what needs to happen. so im open to anything. "....there was more but he looked so sweet and relived and proud when i said that. i needed him to hear that from me. i do trust whatever he wants to do. i am really open to changing a lot right now..it was already happening before all this- so i think this was just a part of it.

i also said i was proud of what he did for a living and that he chose a challenging career but also one that allowed him freedom to have more personal time and live his life the way he wanted with a lot of time off too. he again looked very appreciative and proud.

he said the $ issue is hard bc if we have kids ( i know!!! i cant believe he said that!) then he wouldnt feel too good about his achievements if we get $$ from family so much. ( he did say the kid issue is if we do or dont or whatever in the future- meaning lets not talk about that now)

so that was very deep and powerful.

then we started kissing and cuddling and went in the hot tub and ...... ML!!! for the first time in 4 months- JEEZ louise! it was fun. he he

then he slept here...we both kinda tossed and turned a lot but i was just so happy to have him here- we slept in our bed this time.

this morning he asked me to cut his hair- so cute...

so today i went to classes and said are you staying her tonight? he said something funny which meant yes.

so overall he is very clear. we talked about how life should be fun and enjoyed and now is the time to explore and take journeys. we can always look back later and say wow- what fun was that. im sure there will be no regrets.

so we are both very in tune again. like 2 peas in a pod almost.

i fell very spiritually connected to him.

TD, LOST and JULIA- thanks for the father advice. he is so intense...ive just learned that he i s who he is but i dont need my life to be altered bc he needs so much, which is never enough. i have to live my life and be married for 100 more years.

whew- lots of transitions going on right now!!!