You know those days when you just want to curl into a ball? For me, I sit in my office, with my door closed and cry. It's a good thing I get paid salary (and not some sort of production pay). It's a funk. It comes and goes throughout this whole process. It hurts. I hate it.
Where do you go, what do you do when it hurts?
Me 36 Husband 35 D5 S2 separated: 10/29/07-present Served divorce papers 1/22/09 "When the world gives out beneath your feet, it is time to learn how to fly."
(((Lady))) I cried for five hours. I just let myself cry. I let myself hurt, and cry, and be mad, and calm down, and laugh through the tears at everything being posted while I was crying, and then cried again.
And I have been okay ever since. Maybe it is time to let yourself cry Sweetie...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Oh crying I have done. Maybe not five hours straight, but several nights worth.
I've just never got that "I have been okay ever since" type of relief.
Me 36 Husband 35 D5 S2 separated: 10/29/07-present Served divorce papers 1/22/09 "When the world gives out beneath your feet, it is time to learn how to fly."
It takes time. I cried on and off for months before I hit that point. But I always dried the tears and stopped myself.
This time I didn't, I just let it flow. I am not telling you I don't still cry at times. But it is easier to deal with. If you need to cry, just lock yourself in a room and cry!
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Me locked in my bedroom. d4:Mom? Are you going to feed us?? We're HUNGRRRYYY!! s2:Change me momma! I have POOP! (he always tells me this to get my attention. Truth or not, but I always stop what I'm doing to check).
D4 started kindergarten yesterday, which made me an emotional wreck. S2 is seeing all allergist for some recent food allergies, and now we have to carry a stupid epipen (just in case he stops breathing!).
They sang "Dare you to Move" in church last Sunday. It was the first time h and I had been to church together in at least a year. Except this time we sat on complete opposite sides of the sanctuary. That was pretty ackward.
Just random turmoil making me crazy. Like a snowball.
Me 36 Husband 35 D5 S2 separated: 10/29/07-present Served divorce papers 1/22/09 "When the world gives out beneath your feet, it is time to learn how to fly."
Hi there ladybug. Some hurts I just roll with. My commute is an hour each way, and I can cry and sob for a while and then dry my eyes and look normal when I get to work. Sometimes I turn the hurt into anger and scream along with the stereo cranked to 11. Sadly, the only thing that seems to help is to let it out. I usually stop pretty quickly, the sinuses swell and then it's just no longer fun.
