I post under two names and won't tell you the other. I can tell you I have been here a while. First came here at the end of my marraige. Really I was here too late for DB to work on that. But I did meet someone.
I have pursued. I couldn't see letting go as they new as much about dbing as I did. Figured they would know what I was up to.
I pushed to get her to tell me what went wrong. She seemed to always come up with different reasons. I would address those and explain my side and give examples of how they could be corrected but have had no luck. Basically I have tried to "reason" with her. I have tried to get it out so we could talk about what happened. She just didn't really want to.
I would guess I have sent well over 200 emails to her 10 to 15 responses over the past 10 mnths. I know, I know. Not the thing to do. But how can you let go when they have beliefes (so they say, but we are not suppose to believe what they say or what they do?) that were so different than yours?
I have kept up with my life. Paying my bills going out etc. I have joined a dating site and have been out with some very nice people but that "spark" just doesn't seem to be there. And I am not denying it to myself, it just isn't there. I truly hoped to meet someone that could hold my interest but it has not happened.
I come home feeling lower. It makes me want to fire off another email and I struggle to not. I have put more miles on my motorcycle this year than I have the first two yrs I owned it. My pool game is as good as it has ever been but I have such a hole in my heart.
Well enough for now but I am sure I will write more later.
