OD - thank you for making me laugh! I think the thought of me in hot pants would just be too horrendous!! I will try and get into some banter tomorrow though, could help to lighten the mood and laughing is such a good way of connecting. I shall think of some bus jokes or something! Or I could ask him if he had to be a bus, what number would he be lol!
Jen - I took your advice and have put together a new outfit that I have never worn before. A smart/ feminine top that is quite boobatious and some smart black trousers (I would be meeting him from the office so I want to look semi-authoritative and important) and a pair of high heeled boots (I NEVER wear heels and I remember he commented once when I wore some similar before). Also, I thought as an added touch, I don't wear my wedding ring anymore as a sign that I have accepted what he says but I have got a necklace and bracelet that he gave me for my 21st. It is subtle so he may not notice but it is just a gesture. I don't know - too much pressure?
Ali - I have always been the one to initiate contact with h's parents and after I phoned them devastated from Kuala Lumper as I was trying to get hold of H they have never contacted me since. I did FB his sister in June as it was her 21st birthday to say happy birthday and she replied saying we should meet up this summer but I won't be holding my breath on that one! Thank you for your last sentence - it made me feel a lot better.
