Hi Everyone:

I am feeling a little more relaxed. At this point - they key is to not ramp up again every time I have a little more energy than before. I need to let myself relax completely.

I am receiving email about upcoming event with respect to a local social/athletic meet up group I joined. There is a seminar with a panel of 6 male and 6 female speakers on what men and women are looking for in R's. A seminar on the meaning of life would probably yield more answers. In any case, I signed up to go. It will be interesting to hear what people have to say. They have also set up an outing to see Sweeney Todd and another one to go to the Tina & Tony's Wedding dinner theater. There are some athletic events but they are competitive - I try to stay away from competitive stuff b/c I am incapable of not competing when faced with a challenge. I want to keep my workout stuff non-type A.

The events are all spaced out to where it is an event every month. I still feel a barrier to commiting... Feels decadent to schedule so many fun things. I think if I sign up and just do it - it will get easier over time.

I am glad that my vacation is coming up. I am starting to get excited about going. It really is a day camp for burned out professionals. Very spartan accomodations - and no cabana boys. Very very silly activities - you do these dances called crazy signs before dinner every day that are led by the head of the village and the staff wearing very silly costumes - and you look utterly ridiculous. You hear those silly songs in your head for weeks after you leave. The sand is so fine - it is like talcum powder.

There is just something about this place where you can go and just leave reality at the door. And there is an intellectual component to the conversations - but they are about things that don't matter - at least not the days that you are there. It is a haven for geeks like myself.

I am feeling relaxed just thinking about my vacation. Life is good.

take care,
AG