For the Guy with Kids and a WW 10

[hopeful4her]

Why NOT make her come to me? I DID my part. As we agreed, the ball has been put in her court. Am I supposed to hound her? Do I keep on pursuing her and begging her? Because, no matter how I would put it, that is what it would be, I think.

I just don't know, dub. I'm not trying to start any single married, married single anything.

Just want to get on WITH a life. She is.

For her, something was lacking. A little this or a little that. For me and every LBS, A WHOLE FREAKIN' PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL PERSON THAT HAS PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY REJECTED ME AND GAVE THEMSELVES TO SOMEONE ELSE PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY is missing. A person that has told me that I am the one standing between her and happiness. She purposly went seeking him out. I am not seeking anyone. I do NOT want any kind of relationship or drama in my life. I know I need time to spend figuring out myself. I'm just enjoying the company of others that care about me. Guys and gals.

But yeah, I fantisize. And I think that is all it is. Fantasizing about something missing in my life. Something missing that brings me joy. I don't call anyone(the alphabet girls). They call me. I just sit back and enjoy a fantasy.

My wife is happy. I want to be happy, too.

With her, I feel mixed emotions. I love her and I am angry at her. The ultimate betrayal between a husband and wife.

I think she is too far gone, dub. Only time will tell. I just don't think I want her right now.

And I hope that I'm not coming off as angry at you, dub. Your my Guardian Angel. I was just venting.

Like I said, I think I'm just crazy. Like Suga