I really haven't learned how to listen, hence my recent modulation of the same old issues. I end up back where I started everytime.
It was delusion to stay.
Frequency can be changed, although I still find myself angry about wasting so many years. It was foolish to take this path, but I did. Now It seems I need to learn to live with it. I am having difficulty with that part.
Evidently, my disappointment at my own choices is showing through. Now she is back to sleeping on the couch, angry at me. The funny/sad part is that she probably thinks I am trying to manipulate her. I am not. It is hard to hide emotion. Perhaps it is sometimes even harder to read masked emotion on someone elses face.
I really must address this soon, but I had hoped I would learn to cope. I lay awake last night trying to figure a "percentage of success" in our marriage including the sex issue. I figured that a good mark might help me get it all into perspective. It didn't. About the best I could come up with was a 73. Pretty weird way to "score" a marriage. In fact, pretty weird to score a marriage at all.
Answer the following question accurately, and win what's behind door #2 - "On a scale of 1 - 100, how good is your marriage? AAAANNNNNNNNKKKK - wrong answer! Off you go to divorce court to completely wreck what is left of your already piss poor percentage..."
You are right, tundranut, next time I will listen.
-NOPkins-
I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.
