We do it, sometimes often, sometimes not much, my choice.
I am tired of asking or initiating. All encounters have to be planned in advance, and should preferably occur before 8:00pm.
We do the basically the same thing every time. I ask, we do, she pops, I pop, all alright. Average elapsed time - 20 minutes. So far (probably forever), not much in the way of exploration or experimentation.
Those of you that have followed my previous posts know that I like sex a lot, just not on an installment plan.
I find I am asking less and less. Maybe that was her original plan. If so, she wins. I have absolutely no desire whatsoever to discuss it with her. Beating a dead horse and all that, or monkey in this case, to death...
So, I am out of ideas and ready to just forget it and move on. All this started becoming a serious issue in 1991 when much business travel interrupted the "routine". Having a routine is nothing new. I was already very tired of it then.
To be perfectly honest, I knew way back that she was inhibited, I thought I could fix it. I was wrong. Great sex before marriage, but not after. I did the "right thing" and stuck it out. I had my own large list of unseemlies as well, so I had no claim to perfection.
Well, I can't fix it, and there is no unihibited woman just waiting to get out. I sure as hell don't want to toss all the effort and hard work, property and money to start over. I want to learn to live with it, but I doubt I can do that. If I didn't love her, it would be easy to live with.
I am trying to learn "numb" as a way of life regarding our relationship. I want to be kind and do some things with her that she enjoys, but not get so entangled with the relationship that the "obsession" of trying to fix the relationship doesn't creep back in. Numb seems like a good way to be right now - I am really tired of trying.
I am considered quite the expert in my work, one of the top people in my field. I have never had a problem that I couldn't engineer a solution to, except this one :-)
Oh well...
I hope everyone is well, and that you folks are making progress with your spouses.
-NOPkins-
I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.
