You received some excellent advice from Bill. I hope none of the advice I have given you has been distracting. If it has I appologize. I am just trying to help you loosen your grip on your H (i.e. detach) so you can more easily do the things that are being talked about.
Take care
TwinDad Me 39, W 36, M 11 W - MLC, WAW???? 2 Kids B/G 3 YRS Old Start of the Long and Bumpy Road..... On the verge of piecing.....a new beginning