For the Guy with Kids and a WW 10

[hopeful4her]

Thinking about it, I think me breaking down the other night was due more to missing my family. Not really GBG. The family time, ALL of us together, and then having to leave. I just lost it. If it was GBG, I would have sent the text. In a heart beat.

I'm getting used to doing the me thing. It hasn't been very long, but I can see improvements. Taking things day by day helps. Play some more golf, play some basketball or at least just go shoot some hoops by myself, read more like I used to, and be with friends and family.

And hanging out with people that want to be hanging with me.

AT, I remember from day one, the first time you posted to me, you called her S2BXW. I was taken back by it. But you saw it. Like I tell people, I have some hope, but I'm not counting on it. Going to do what makes me happy.

And that could be hanging around a lady the wants to be around me. Even just talking.

Y was at my office for a little while. Talked a little. She went on an appointment. She ended up calling me on my direct line.
We must have talked for half an hour. I'm surprised I didn't have a client, because the rest of the day was busy as hell. Except for this small time frame. We talked about her daughters first day, my kids first day. We talked about work. Not sure how we got started, but we talked about the guy she likes. She called him a couple days ago, but hasn't heard from him and she is angry at him and herself. I told her she needs to let him go. She agrees. She says how she always ends up friends with the guys she dates. I tell her to not be naive. They still want to get into her panties. We go back and forth some on it, then she kind of agrees. We talk about being in the 'friend zone'. Not where a guy wants to be. I say nice guys are still out there. She doesn't want a nice guy. I ask if she wants a jerk. She says no. I say that there are no perfect people out there. Look for the one that respects her and stands up to her too. She doesn't want someone boring, but not an all out party guy too. I tell her that she may already know the guy, but doesn't realize it. She agrees. Maybe.

We talk about how much she likes to talk. I tell her I'm not really a chit chatter. Talking just to talk. She says that she changed guys like that. I agree with her. I tell her, "In these past 6 or 7 months, I can honestly say that the longest conversations that I have had have been with you." We crack up.
"I KNEW you were going to say that!" I mean, I had her laughing.

I had such a good time talking to her. I cannot help myself when it comes to her. I know I don't have a snowballs chance in hell with her, but I really love talking to her. She just loves to talk and she draws me in. GBG always wanted me to talk to her, but never would really initiate talking to me. I would tell her that if she wanted to talk so much, why didn't she just talk to me. It became such an issue with her. I can talk my ass off. I just need the right push. With Y, it just comes. And today, I realized that I was trying to plant seeds.

I'm sure she is exactly the same with ALL her guy friends. And I do believe she has a LOT. And I'm sure she is hit on constantly.

I admit it. I'm a mixed up person. I didn't used to be. But when I'm around B or Y, I am such a confident person. No, a confident man. And having no expectations about any of it, I feel tons better for it about myself. I wish I could explain it. They don't flirt with me. They don't. We just talk. I fantasize a bit, but I think thats all it is. I am NOT these girls type. They have broken up with way better than me.

Like I said before, I think I'm in the "friend zone" with both of them anyway. It can't hurt if it helps my PMA.

Am I really the only that one that thinks they're nuts? Just my goofy thoughts that I'm posting for everyone to see.