Thanks for the feedback. You are so right when you say it's easier to be objective about someone else's sitch. I have great advice for everyone else, I just can't follow it myself.
I think you are right...I need to stop with the invites and I always give myself a pep talk before I see or talk to him telling myself I WILL NOT INVITE HIM OVER AND I WILL NOT ASK HIM IF HE MISSES ME. Of course, that's all out the window when he's actually in front of my and I feel compelled to ask him dumb questions.
Good example is tonight (I really think I need to be slapped around)....he comes over to pick up D...convo is fine...no R talk...D goes upstairs to get her stuff and I jokingly say..you better get out of here soon...I have a date. He says...no problem I'll be out of your hair as soon as possible...to which I retort.."oh it wouldn't bother you at all huh?". He says it's none of his business...that it's my life. This makes me angry so I say..."you don't miss me?". He says..."I don't think about it". In my head I'm thinking...BASTARD! So he leaves and of course I'm not done...I gotta call him on the phone and continue with my questions...only this time I ask him if he's attracted to me. This makes him angry and he says he's not answering that question for me again...that he's answered it a million times and refuses to answer it again. So I say is it still the same answer....he replies it has always been the same answer (I have asked him a lot...he always says he has always been attracted to me). He asks why I keep having to talk about all this S@#! to which I reply because I'm lonely...he says he's lonely too and I say, but you don't care about me and I do care about you...that's the difference. He then says...it wasn't easy living with you. At this point my senses start to come back and I realize what a freakin pathetic moron I am making of myself so I tell him I'll let him go.
Ohhhhh..Lord...what is wrong with me??? I am so afraid if I stop showing interest in him he will forget about me A big part of our problem was him saying I didn't make him feel important so I'm afraid if I back off now he'll think "I knew she would never change".
Ok...I'm gonna try this again...no invites...no questions of affirmation...gotta get a life!
A big part of our problem was him saying I didn't make him feel important so I'm afraid if I back off now he'll think "I knew she would never change".
