For the Guy with Kids and a WW 10

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If only we could figure out WHY we want to reach out so much. It has to be the rejection. We just cannot believe that its not us that they want.

THAT is hard to take. WHY?

I almost pushed send. To have her not respond would have just killed me. So why chance it? I would have looked weak anyway. But it is damn hard to NOT reach out.

After D11 got out of school, she was texting me a couple times back and forth. When I got off of work, I called GBG to let her know I was on my way. She almost sounded surprised. Just like her. I had to repeat it.

"I'm coming to pick up the girls. I'll be there soon."
"Okay. They are going to eat before they go."

WTF? I get there, and little SIL is there too. D6 was in a mood. Not listening. No one was packed. Kids are telling me about the day. S14 also. GBG asks if I want to eat. I decline. I'm talking to the girls and asking them to get ready. Please. Someone knocks on the door. Its her neighbor I met. She brought someone for GBG to meet. They step outside. I know they are talking about child care for D6. 10 minutes later, she comes back in. D6 keeps insisting on going to play with the neighbors son.

GBG sits to tell me that she believes that she has the childcare set.
"Who her? Who is she?"
"She is lady from upstairs."
"What happened to the Y?"
"I didn't want to pay $180. It was expensive."
"I knew how much it was. Did you check it out?"
"Yes. I did."
"Its not like you were going to pay by yourself."
"No. I wasn't."

She said that with ugly emphasis.

"Your the one that wanted to put her in the Y. Have you met the lady? Have you been to her place?"
"We are going to visit in a minute. I am NOT going to leave my daughter with just anyone. I'm taking care of it."

I wanted to tell her that here we are, needing child care tomorrow. She told me she was going to take care of it before. We are going to meet this lady at 7:00 the night before. What if we or I don't like her? Then what?

I bit my tongue and turned away. I shook my head.
"Why are you nodding?"
I turn to look her dead in the eyes.
"I am not nodding. I'm shaking my head."
"Why are you shaking your head?"
Again, she is being ugly.
"Because I can't figure out why you have to talk the way you do."

I turn away. I'm getting frustrated. D6 is not listening. D11 phone rings. She is in her room talking. I figured it was my mother. GBG walks in.
"Who's that?" in her normal rude tone.
"What?! Why? It's grandma."
A minute passes.
"Okay. Why did she get off the phone all of the sudden?"
"Why? Why are you mad?"
"I'm not mad. I'm not going to keep you from your grandparents. If your dad's mother or father calls, I'm not going to keep you from talking to them."

Your dads mother or father? She is so stupid.

She closed the door for about 10 minutes.

I look into GBG's bedroom where S14 is. I look at him with a look. He looks back at me and give the universal sign with his hands.

The "I don't know, and I ain't askin'" sign.

Don't forget that SIL is there. Not a peep. She sat herself at the dining table and doing some homework or something. Reading. Hopefully she'll realize how ridiculous GBG is sometimes. Always unprovoked.

The girls come out. I am starting to get pissed. I just want to get the hell out of there. I grab what I can and take to the car. I come back and try to hurry up everyone.

We go upstairs to meet the couple. They are research scientists here from Kosovo. Been her 3 years. Have a boy in the 3rd grade. Very nice people. I got a good feeling.

I do trust my gut feelings. Introducing me to the couple, she says,
"I brought my husband to meet ya'll too."

Then she caught herself. "The girls dad."

Stupid ass.

We stay for about 30 minutes. I'm trying to leave. Once outside, GBG and I talk about them. They're nice. She told me they were Indian at first.

Again, stupid ass. Okay, I thought they might have been Morrocan or something. I guess I'm stupid too.

Back to the apartment for something. We go over the girls afterschool schedule once more. D11 mentions something about me picking up and us waiting for GBG to come home and having dinner. I correct her and tell her that when I get there, we are hitting the road, not waiting. GBG says that sometimes she'll get out early and will try to fix dinner.

Yeah, sure.

FINALLY we leave. GBG looks her usual sad self, but not as bad this time. She'll feel it just like I did. S14 tells me he'll see me Wednesday. Come home, play with puppies for a little while. I have to get D6 showered and to bed. She is DYING for sleep. GBG had asked me to make sure to finish D11's paperwork. She will finish D6's paperwork and take it to the school in the morning. She wants to get with the teacher and give her the afterschool schedule for D6.

I'm going to have to email the teacher too. Make sure no spinning is going on.

By the way, the girls like the Acqua di Gio most. Looks like we have a winner.

The more I see GBG, the more I'm going to lose sight of the goal.

And no kidding, GBG's shirt IS fitting her tighter.