I understand what you are saying, but I don't want to contribute to anyone's marriage going south. That is why I put the warning at the beginning of my first post on this thread.
I also almost wish that I could just turn everything off so to speak, and head out for greener fields. Alas, there is a lot of history here, and a lot of love. At this point, anything I do outside of status quo, will result in pain for both parties.
I do wish that there was some mandatory pre-marital education. At least cover basic issues like sex and money. You might be suprised at how many people can't balance a checkbook.
I do appreciate the input and the encouragement. I have no idea how all this will turn out. Last night, I had to duck and run a bit. That was something totally new for me. She was making up (feeling guilty) for the previous night where she spent the night on the couch (for the 10,000+ time), by being available to me. I think I could have performed, but my heart certainly wasn't in it. Neither was hers...
I don't want her living in guilt anymore. I am sick of the guilt/repent cycle when there is no real change. I will be damned if I will be party to it anymore for that matter.
So, back to the same issues, while stuck in my very own loop.
Here's to hoping your wife will wake up soon, -NOPkins-
I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.
