I do have some hope left, but it is toward intervention by higher powers. I have tried phoning in wake-up calls, and it just didn't work.
She is noticing that something is wrong, but I haven't been angry. I have done my best to be kind and considerate. I don't hate her, I love her, but I am out of ideas.
It seems terribly sad to get this far and still miss the mark. All I still want, and you can trace it back to my original postings in "Monkey on a string", is simply to be wanted.
"We can do it on your initiative, but it has to be done a certain way. This is to make you feel loved" This is an over-simplification, but I swear that is what my experience has been so far.
Hint, I would like a sex PARTNER, not a sex object. I, like others here, want a 'WE' experience, not a singular one. Hell, even mutual masturbation is more 'WE' than 'I'.
What the hell happened to "the two shall become of one flesh"?
Before I was married, I had lots of sex that was 'we' oriented. It was a free and open exchange of pleasure. Now that I have done the "right thing" all these years and contained my sex to marriage, it is sometimes ok, occasionally good, almost never great. I can count on one hand, the number of times I have had 'WE' sex in the past 27 years.
Shouldn't it be just the opposite? Shouldn't I be able to count the 'non-we' sex on one hand? Why is this a difficult concept? All questions I have no answer for.
Sorry for the rant, but thanks for listening.
I appreciate your insight from a failed relationship point of view. I hope I can prevent that from happening with mine.
-NOPkins-
I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.
