Glad I am not the only one struggling with eye contact. I don't think H even notices anyway.
Had a super rough morning. H did stay away Friday and Saturday night, but stayed last night. I was sooo frustrated. I want to move on with my life, darnit, why does he get to move on with his? I will be talking with him this week. I don't care if he thinks I am a biatch anymore.
We were supposed to go file tomorrow, but he is working now. I can't go on Wednesday (the only day he can go), but I am going to work something out to get there this week. Wonder if we both have to be there.
I am so angry today. At the whole situation. I mowed the heck out of the yard today, then came inside and cried. I kept doing piddly things, emptying the dishwasher, cleaning up, as I cried. At some point, I stopped crying, but didn't realize it at the time. I do feel better tonight.
I feel like I have nowhere to go with my anger. I don't want to keep it inside, I don't want it. I do so much better with my girls around, that's for sure.
