Well, yesterday was an odd day. I was still pretty angry yesterday. W borrowed some money and got the cell phone paid. She left a message at the guard unit to call her. When I called her back my BIL had tried to run over my SIL on sat. He then ran some farm equipment off a dam and stole his dad's semi. They were still looking for him. W asked if I could change the locks in SIL's house. Not really a problem since she has two younger kids.
Somehow she started with if I had nothing else to do, never mind don't go out of your way, I thought you cared about me and you put everything else ahead of me. I thought the best response to some of this was nothing because it would not have been pleasant. It did at the time make me more angry. Then it kind of went to disbelief and kind of amusing. Back to anger on the way to the house.
When I got there she was in the bedroom. SIL had left and would be back in a little while. Talked to W for a little bit and then she melted down. She started crying about her car, finances, ect. I supported her some but was thinking deal with it. The she said that she had pushed the only person who had loved her unconditionally away. MIL then came in looking for something. After MIL left I went back to talk with W. She started crying again and basically it was:
- realized that SD16 had more to do with this then she first thought (long story) - she felt trapped between 5 different worlds - she had a lot to think about - she missed me terribly - I was the only one she was comfortable enough with to express everything she feels - why did I still care after everything she put me through
Then she started making out with me. It started to get pretty passionate until D11 came back from a friends house. I did end up staying for dinner, SIL and MIL came up.
When MIL and D11 left to go get something W came up and hugged me and starting kissing me again. She said that she wanted to stay home more and wished I was there but was unable to. She wanted a normal life. Then MIL and D11 got back.
After dinner I went and changed the locks on SIL house. They had caught BIL but he was bailing out of jail. When I got back W had taken some medicine for a migraine and was falling asleep. She gave me a hug and a couple kisses and told me she would talk to me tomorrow.
She did call today and talked with her, nothing real important. When I was driving through another town she came driving up behind me. She was there picking up a friends kid. Talked with her some and she had SD16, who was uncharacteristically friendly. Nothing to important.
All day I thought I should be more excited. I have just felt pretty skeptical about the whole thing. Any ideas on how to handle this development.
A warrior does not give up on what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
