Wifey,

If you need help back to your spirtual home. I'm here and can pretty much claim authority as a lay amateur theologian. ;\) LOL There is also a great resource called the Journey Home Network founded my Marcus Grodi. You might want to look into resources on EWTN, and see what you can find out about Dr. Scott Hahn.

I'm also thinking you need a deep red lipstick for those golden brown eyes. ;\)

I'll be praying with you Wifey.

BND, Lurker... haha... lol.

I have thought about sole custody, but that will just put her into a rage. I don't think the time is right. Unless she starts exhibiting unsafe behavior. Her kids are her life. Well they were. Now it seems to be the ice cream shop, then the kids, and I'm not even in the game.

I have cut down on buying stuff for the kids. Even tongight they wanted to go miniture golfing and I told them not tonight. Luckily they found Indiana Jones lego's for the playstation and they are consumed by it. It is a puzzler. We have done other things that do not require money either, but it just seems like they always think I need to do fun stuff with them. I like to paint and we get out the paints and try new things with it. I think we should do some painting this week. Looks like I have them tonight, tomorrow, and the next night. They start school on Weds. It's going to get interesting.

Closure with the exgirlfriend. Ha, is there really. I mean I haven't seen her in over 13 years. The last time I talked with her was on the phone and my wife was there as the girlfriend. Saying don't talk to the that b|tch you are with me now. Then all through the marriage I had to deal with her insecurity over it. I believe I had closure, but now that I saw that there is real closure. You see that girlfriend was a walk away. She came back, and walked away again. Looks like she went to another state, and it took her ten years before she settled down. So it was most likely a good thing that her and I didn't stay together. Who knows. I wonder if she knew I got married? Have kids. I mean 13 years and I had a lifetime of love with my wife, or so I thought.

Point is I also let her go. Thinking if it was meant to be, then it was meant to be. But then I thought I met my true love and married her.

I still believe I met my true love and married her. She is just a little confused right now and going through some crap. I just think it is kind of sad that this exgf and I didn't remain friends. Then I carried her BS into my marriage.

Well the same hold true for the wife and I. Will she ever come back from the Southern Train?

Do I keep making things worse? Most likely? I just keep thinking she is going to snap out of it.

Reflecting back. Reading back. I was told to change the locks. I didn't. I kept things calm.

I keep getting told about a visitation schedule. However I think this is part of the burden on her. She is experiencing a solitary loss by having to worry about when the children are going to be watched and by whom.

I do think I need to tell her that on nights she works and the kids have school then they need to stay with me.

I wonder if she will come home when she takes the kids to school. I wonder if she will come in the morning and get them ready to take them to school. These are things she needs to talk to me about, but I don't think she is ready to act like an adult.

Just like the exgf took over 13 years to settle down and maybe she is starting to act like an adult. I wanted to get married young, because I didn't want to run around like a goof ball. Looks like my current wife does now. Like she missed something, because we got married so young. Looks like exgf got a good job, and she was happy looking in the photo. Wonder which one of them will be on this site in the future?

Goals... Keep my head above water. Stay close to God.

Stop trying to hug her, kiss her cheek, or touch her hand.

Stop texting completely. Last night I back slided. Pretty much told her off. Let her burn out.

I start class again tomorrow, and hopefully I will not have to fight with team members. Get the easy A. Like the last class. I took two weeks off to recharge.

I feel great! Omega 3's and Vitamin C.