There was a bit of turbulance this weekend. W had the kids on Sat, while I had plans with my friends. It gets complicated but she was furious at me because I was not going to make it home in time for her to make some plans she had made in the middle of the night about 3 hours away.
We text a bit and she calms down and asks if she can leave in the morning and use my motorcycle since it's safer on the freeway. I decide it's not that big a deal. But want to think about it more so wait to tell her untill I get home.
Now's where I might need a 2x4. I had the opportunity to just be cool, lend her the bike and let it be...but when I got home some how I got to rubbing her hair while we talked about it and I backslid.
No R talk, she was liking the hair rubbing and asked me to continue when I got up. I left to get ready for bed and when I came back down I acted...strained. Oh, and I offerd for her to stay since it was now 3am and she said she wanted to leave at 7am. (BONK!)
Long ago I told her that she disarms me, it's still true. Every time I see her want to take a step backward. Apparantly sometimes I do.
My goal today is to move on with no regrets, I can be fine with this as long as I correct my course and keep sailing forward.
Me:34 W:31 d's 5 & 10 M: 5 years, T: 8, Bomb1 3/8/08,#2:3/28/08 Asked 4 D:4/19/08, discovered PA 5/8/08,W moved out 6/30/08 W pregnant by OM: 2/17/08
