"Basically, it comes down to owning your part in things and making the changes within yourself to keep this from happening in the future (either in this R or in others)."
OK, maybe I'm deceiving myself, but I can see my part as having panicked and reacted with fear and anger, when I suspected and discovered there was another woman in my H's life.
Perhaps, I need to go deeper than this. I am not sure how far to go. I know this is over the top. I do have a C and a Pastor. My C has been helping with the anxiety, tho not entirely. I still have panic attacks and that's when it get bad with H. She has been trying to help as well with the calling. Does anyone have any experience with these kind of things, I wonder?