How do I stop engaging him. I am definitely scared of losing him and I realize that I have already lost him. I know in my head to stop engaging him. My emotions are gripping me and I can't seem to let go. I know I love him and also know he does not love me. He is not the person I knew. He is this unknown creature that caught me swiftly by surprise who says he did not make this decision before three months ago. I know this is a lie, or otherwise he wouldn't have detached so easily and completely. He is definitely talking to Jennifer every single day and probably seeing her regularly. She has him in her grip. I know I cannot loosen that grip. I want to let him go, but I find the other men I meet are total losers. I find myself saying, I would rather have him that any one of them.

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