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I just flipped out on him. He called as he stopped home and his dad apparently told him I was calling him. Now his father doesn't want to talk to me. That hurts. So I left him a voicemail and texted him, those he can't not pick up. Anyway, I tried for the longest time not to go into it but he pushed me and I got nasty. I told him again that he had no morales and that I did not want her sleeping in the room with the kids. He says they won't sleep anywhere else but with him. I said then don't have her there, your father said she was not allowed to stay and as I thought he did not know it. I did find out that he pays his dad rent though. When he first got nasty I hung up and he called back. Then I thought he hung up but he called back and said the phone went dead, and said he was going to do it calmly. Said he would do his best to have them sleep elsewhere. I just CAN'T stand the thought of him sleeping with this other person. I told him to do her in his car or at his enabling sisters house and not around the kids. I even went as low as to see I see you have refilled your viagra, so to speak, and that I used to own "that" body part. He said no one owns anyone and I was a control freak and I said you owned me as well. I know much of it was wrong, I just can't stand it! I really need help, but no help can get the image of my husband sleeping with another woman and losing my kids 50% of the time. I know others have similar situations, but that doesn't make me feel better.