I'm so happy that you faced your demons and knew what was important in life. That's hard!
This whole thing is such a crap shoot. You know we all come here on an even plain, for some it works out and for others it doesn't. When we start out we have no idea which side we will be on. Lucky for us huh? Not only does it give us time to understand what went wrong, but to also understand that we made our share of mistakes. What we choose to do about that is the real test of who we are.
The other test of course is one of faith. I prayed so long and hard that God would restore my marriage. The hard part, and the true test for me, was accepting that we don't always get what we want. I say that that was hard because of course we want back what we know. When it doesn't happen, we have to put our faith in God and believe that he has another plan for us.
Inspite of it all I certainly don't feel like a DB failure. I am a much better person for having done so, and I don't believe that it was an accident that I found this board. I feel as if I can look my kids in the eye knowing that I did everything possible to save my marriage.
I'm so happy that your Husband is willing to stick by you and do what it takes. I do still believe in happy endings!
