The pensive thoughts. Gee I did something strange. I was thinking about the exgf/fiance before my wife. So I googled her. Found out she had a wedding announcement in the local paper. Took her over ten years to get married. She went the career mode after me. The picture of her also looks like she is still struggling with a weight condition because her face look sunken almost anorexic. When I looked at her photo. I had no feeling for her. I was deeply in love with her before my wife. I haven't seen or talked to her in almost 15 years. She looked happy. She moved out of state and got a good job.
How she affected me in the relationship with my wife is another story. After her I did become stoic. I wouldn't let another woman hurt me again.
I feel like there is closer with the exgf now. I mean I always felt there was closer once I got married, but now seeing her getting married it is closed.
Well the one thing bad was this exgf left her intimates behind in my apartment. The woman that I married found them after her and I were dating for three months. So my wife always thought I was cheating on her with my ex. My wife would always bring that story up too. Really I was just a dumb 22 year old at the time. I completely forgot about the intimates. I never cleaned my apartment. My new girlfriend did, and she found them.
One time the exgf even called when my new girlfriend was there. I was nice to her on the phone, because I thought it was a bad break up and I wanted to still be friends. My new girlfriend who bacame was so mad that I was even talking to her.
Sometimes you just can't win!
I wonder if I will ever not feel anything for my wife.
