I don't know, maybe I am finally starting to heal. All I know is that I don't hurt much anymore. I can finally concentrate on other things besides H. I still want my marriage to work, but I also don't feel like my life depends on it anymore. I hate that there has been NC since he was over a week ago, and we had such a great visit, but I have not felt the need to pursue him either, although I did send him an email today reminding him I get paid tomorrow so I can give him money towards the health insurance. It was forwarded with a funny joke that I thought he would appreciate, but nothing else.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
