Thanks ITH. My belief is that it does not matter what you believe, as long as you believe. I have tried a number of different things even tried sort of casting a "love spell" didn't work, you need to believe, and I do, but felt it was wrong for me. The path I am on now seems to bring the most comfort and peace, and so that is the path I am supposed to be on!
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..