Yesterday, I was baptized at my church. I have to tell you that this was an amazing feeling. I was baptized Catholic, and I don't hold well with the constructed religion. My D12 and I have been going to this church for four or five months, it is a non demoninational Christian church, and I really like it. I really believe that my faith in God is what has gotten me through this, and given me the peace I have so desparately sought my entire life.
Last night, they had a coffee house get together where I got to really talk with the Pastor and his wife. They are amazing people. I also volunteered to help out in the nursery one Sunday a month, and so tomorrow I go to an orientation class.
D12 begins her cross country training today, and her violin should be in so she can start playing in her choir class. She is going to be learning mariachi music...
Something in me has turned over, and I am not so afraid anymore. I still love my H, and I miss him, but I don't feel that pain anymore. I know things will work out the way they are supposed to, and in the time that God wants it to be.
It is a total leap of faith, and one that I am now so ready for...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
