I can't do it... I'm too stupid. I get around her and I just get stupid.
I call her this morning to tell her we are on our way. She sounds all sh|tty and annoyed and says ok, good bye.
I drop my son off. I carry him up her steps. She is waiting at the door. I put him on the couch and she comes up the steps. She is two steps down, and I ask her if she is tired. She says yes. I ask her if she is taking the kids to moms. She says yes. She just wants to go back to bed. She asks son if he is staying up to watch tv, or going back to bed. I tell him to be good, and listen to mommy the first time. I walk down the steps. She will not even look at me. I said can I have a hug. She kind of rolls her eyes. She hugs me and I tell her she smells good. Then I kiss her cheek. I rub her arms a little. Then I grab her hand and hold it with both hands. I pray silently. I start shaking a little. She lets go.
I tell her to have a nice day and she shuts the door behind me. She will not even look at me.
As I'm walking to the car. I feel like throwing up and start dry heaving. I get in the car and get my composure.
Yes, I know... Shut up! Leave her alone... Don't touch her.
