thanks everyone! i wont forget about anyone here- may just be on here a little less.
so tonight h is mia- i think he had plans and just wanted to be separate from me...its ok but i am a little bummed .... i at least like knowing where he is... but thats an old pattern and it really doesnt matter.
so ive contained myself pretty well....
on another note i had to tell my dad to back off- he has called me veery day and emailed me daily...i havent returned any of his calls barely bc i cant believe he is so pushy...so today i finally had enough and he emailed- i said thanks for caring about blah blah but please reduce your calls to me- it is pushing me away. there is no way to tell him anything. he reacts no matter how you say anything.
he replied and i didnt even read it bc he is so dramatic and mean.
he is revving up his contact bc he knows my h and i are reconnecting and he cant handle it. now he will throw bombs about my h. my dad is very difficult and i truly have no desire to see him- he makes even 10 minutes together painful. sad but true.
anyway- thats probably why i feel a little more clingy towards my h- so i realize that and i am not acting upon it.
yet another reason i cant wait to restart my life with my h.
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