Hello and thank you (((Julia))) and (((Jen))) and the rest of you.
I feel like my personal growth comes after the times when I'm sure I must break and so feel like I would be short changing myself to escape from the growth opportunities through drugs.
This week was rougher because on top of the normal stress of my R, school started and I had the disappointment of the remote job and I've been the on-call person at work all week. So, it's just been a tough week.
I've got a question for everyone. I'm seeing a disconnect between what my W says and does. OK, I know we tell everyone to not believe what they say and only half of what they do. So, I guess I'm in that place right now. W works nights and never the same schedule two weeks in a row. So, if we ended up D like she says we are going to, I fail to see how she is going to be able to share custody of the kids and keep this job. Yet, she has made no effort to find another job with better pay and more regular hours. Additionally, we have talked about different solutions for what to do with the kids since she works in the evenings, including buying a house near the kids schools. Yet, she doesn't ever tell me that these inclusive future plans are untenable because we aren't going to be married. I know that if the situation were reversed, I would be sure to point out the foolishness in planning something based on us being together.
So, does it really matter why she is doing this, or is this just my opportunity to learn to act as if things are the way I want them to be and to ignore what she says?
