Jen, Thought you scared me off, hah!
I'll offer a suggestion for you. You seem to have a lot of expectations, get dissapointed, take it personal (think its your fault) and then your emotions kick in. Plan your actions out ahead of time. Think thru what you are going to do. When I coach we go over situations a lot. When this is happening here's how we are going to play. That way my team is not reacting (emotion) but thinking. We already know what we are going to do. We practiced it , talked about it , drew a picture just so the we don't have any anxiety about the situation.
Back to basics, you don't control him. Quit making his actions about something you did wrong. Just own your actions, thoughts and feelings.
I have to make a longer post than normal on your thread because by the time I get back in the morning you will have had this thread closed with 200+ posts and have started a new one.
Cheers


M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12
Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.