I am trying to be patient ...last night was one of the first times I have actually made plans and done something and I dont think he like it.
I am afraid things are too far gone for him to even get anything back...he is telling everyone he has been miserable for the last seven years of our marriage..that hurts.
And he has let himself fall in love ....
I am going to the attorney tomorrow...to see where I stand and what to do.... maybe set up a temporary parenting plan ...
As much as I dont want her around my kids.... I am going to have to give in...maybe he needs to watch the kids at her house... Its not fair to me for him to be here..while I am at work if this is my home...dont you agree?
I am not back to work yet..going to ask for two more weeks to figure this out and then I will suck it up....
Wed. trip to Chicago is all up in the air..he wants me to back out...I dont want to..I feel if he wants to go ..he can come with us. What do you think? Should I back out gracefully even though I want to see the family? This could be my last opportunity in along time.
And I guess I dont see how even in time he can come back even if he wants after letting everyone know how miserable I have made him the last 7 years. Do you think its still possible.
No problem with no contact..I am so mad i have no desire right now..so that is an easy one.
I feel like I have turned the corner..I still am upset but I am not the blubbering idiot that I think he enjoyed..
