Trusting God's Plan

[princess_nic]

Thank you all so much for your support. I am here so seldom, and I really do appreciate your taking the time to help me out.

I am doing so much better today. In fact, the last few days have been quite good for me. Even my anniversary day ended up getting better!

I really want to just live my life and enjoy it, which generally, I do. There are moments (like you say, Bill, they are just moments) when I feel like I can't stand to be alone, I am sad, etc etc. But most of the time, I really am happy. And as much as I would like to share my life w/ someone, I want it to be the RIGHT someone - not just a man whom I've made into Mr. Right b/c I want him to be! I realise that this has been my pattern in the past. So right now, I am concentrating on just living, doing things I like, and getting to know the men I meet in a friendly way. Not only does it take the pressure off, it's more fun. I was always afraid of this b/c I didn't want to fall into the "friend zone," but I really do think it's the best way to start. Plus, it stops finding a part from being my focus, but still leaves me open to it, which is also healthier for me.

All in all, things are good (for now lol!). I go back to work tomorrow, and I am actually looking forward to it. I've had a good rest and I'm ready for a new school year.

Love to all of you,
Nicola