She's moving out!

[firedog31d6]

Last night was a real blow out!

I took my D to play volleyball with the guys from the station. We had a great time and afterward, I went to exchange some clothes and bought her a cowgirl hat and some boots and told her that it was for her birthday which isn't until next weekend.

Later on, I told the W that I was going to look for her a bicycle and she started in on me. "I thought we agreed that her birthday gifts were coming from both of us, but I see you're going and buying her all this stuff and it's all from you". Then for the rest of the evening, everything that I did was criticized. I finally had enough and said "is there anything else I can screw up for you?". Then I gave her a $100 bill and she asked what it was for... "it's to make up for the screw ups... if you need more, let me know". Then I told her that I can't seem to do anything right and that she picks apart everything I say or do and I just threw up my hands and said "I give up". I stormed up to my office and slammed the door.

The reason for the $100 bill is because she keeps reminding me that she has no money, and starts crying because she realizes that it's going to be tough on her finnacially. She knows that I make more money, and have a little in the bank (not much anymore) but more than she does... What she doesn't think about is that I work 2 jobs and average about 30 hours/week more than most people to get that money. If it weren't for that, I would be squandering too. Besides, I didn't ask her to walk out to begin with. It's like she wants to go and live her own life without any boundaries and spread her wings and fly on her own, but she also wants to have the financial stability that she had when she was at home with me.... She tries to make me feel guilty because she has no money and she gets angry when she sees me moving on with my life and going to the movies with the D, taking her to the water parks, etc... and she can't afford to. I'm sorry, but I don't feel the least bit of sympathy for her right now... I am really angry to be honest... I didn't sign up for this.

What's funny, is that she wants her freedom, and doesn't want to be "forced" to do anything, or be "controlled" right? But who is really being controlled here now? Since I have dropped the rope and left her alone (like she wants), now she wants to control me. I feel like I am the one who is being forced against my will to do something and accept something that I never signed up for to begin with. I never asked for this, but yet I still have to take it like a man and keep my mouth shut "or else". My daughter didn't ask for this either, and yet she too has to be drug down this torturous road that her mother has choosen for them. UGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!! I'm so frustrated...