WAW: Watching & Waiting

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Thanks Tim
Going to my friends house did help. We always have a good time together, a lot in common.

Don't let him control how you feel or make you feel guilty.

Easier said than done. I know I'm responsible for my feelings, but his actions & words affect me. I'm learning how to let some of them roll off my back, but walking the line between being self-aware & co-dependent is hard some days.

It is like telling and alcoholic he is one.

Ironically, during our practice session last night with the homework from counseling, he said and I quote "I was raised by people who think working this hard, this long is normal, there is nothing wrong with it."

And the retort that sprang into my head (that I did not vocalize) was "I bet that is what the alcoholic child of an alcoholic says too."

I have stayed away from H's house today.. after last nights session of homework that degraded into him crying, pleading, begging & pushing, I told him I was sorry he was hurting, but I could not do what he was asking (go to bed with him & hold him).

I'm struggling to find the positive in our interactions lately.
The song "cruel to be kind" keeps popping into my mind today.

Thanks for stopping by.
Peace
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