Thinking of biting the bullet

[ACJ]

My son did well in his exams: 3 As, 4 Bs, 2Cs and 2Ds. He even managed to get a C (which is a pass) in English language which is the subject he failed to turn up to one of the exams for. Just think what he could have done if he had just read his timetable correctly!

The actual collection of the results didn't go well though. I turned up at school at the alloted time but he wasn't there and as I could see that they had opened up early and that children were leaving with thier results in their hands I thought I had missed him. So I rang to see how he had done but he hadn't left home yet. Unfortunately he heard all the other kids in the background and realised where I was. He said he wasn't going to arrive at school until I had left. I was really hurt especially when I knew that H was taking him to the school.

He came round to see me afterwards and stayed a while but I had been crying so it didn't go well (again). I clearly hit a nerve when I implied that H was manipulating him b/c he went ballistic.

I think we sorted it in the end b/c I took him and D18 out for tea to celebrate in the end. D13 was staying at her grandmas for the week with a friend.

My parents are here for the holiday weekend and are helping me decorate S16s room. It will probably end up being D13s new room as she currently only has a very tiny box room and his room is quite large and in the attic.

D13 was less than happy when my parents brought her home as I have confiscated the web cam as I have reason to believe she has been using it inappropriately. I also shut down her 'MySpace' site for the same reason. At 13 she shouldn't have had one anyway as you are supposed to be 14. She hasn't mentioned the website yet but boy did we have some tantrums over the webcam.

D18 has gone to Corfu for a week with her BF. I dropped them off at the airport yesterday. Just before we left S16 phoned to speak to D13. She wasn't here for his bday and he wanted to know if she wanted to go round to Hs to see him. She had gone to visit her friend who was going on holiday today at the time. He wasn't very happy about this and made some comment about not seeing her for 2 weeks and HE IS HER BROTHER! I very nearly made some comment about him only seeing us when it was convenient to him and how it didn't make the rest of us want to put ourselves out for him but I resisted the temptation. I just stayed quiet. He came today to see my parents. He hasn't seen them since April when he went to live with H b/c he has stayed away on purpose when they have been here before.

My whole family is fragmented all b/c H wanted his freedom. I'm not sure I can ever forgive him for that.