Here I am....real life and all.

[Starshyne]

Things are going well, but I am extremely stressed out with being back at work (I am a teacher). We have a whole new program and things are insane adn very confusing to me.

H continues to call on a regular basis. Half of the time he just wants to chat, which I don't understand at all. This is the newest tm from him

I'm sorry sara 4 adultery. im truly sorry I made a extreme mistake

I am not sure where this stuff is coming from? Is he finally hitting bottom and realizing what he has done? Or is he just saying that stuff to make himself feel better? Sometimes I still question if I moved too quickly to divorce. But then I remember how miserable I was with him refusing to leave the house and how cruel and awful he always was to me during that time. I did what I needed to do. There was no signs of him changing at that point.

He came and got his stupid huge TV yesterday. Praise God! When we were married, he bought this TV, after we (or so I thought) agreed not to buy it. That was our first major fight as a married couple and it was a major point of arguement for the rest of the marriage. The day after he and OW came to declare their devotion to each other, I had the TV moved to the garage. It has been there ever since...but now it is out of my life forever!

I just got back from Walmart. That is a difficult place for me. Too many thought of my xh. Too many feelings. But I made it and I didn't cry.

I went on a 2nd date with the guy with his own house last night. I had a delightful time and even got a good night kiss! I really am liking this man. He is just so nice and normal. He listens to me when I am talking and remembers things I have said to him. I am glad that I have gone out with him a few times.

Sara