Thank you both so much. I agree, what is going on with our H's is inside them & not with us. Once they figure that out then they will realize what they have done.
I don't know how my H looks since he is so far away. I can't help but worry about him, I always worried about him all these years when we were not together so how can I stop now.
I'm taking one day at a time & just maybe one day things will change with him. But right now I'm trying to look after me & the dogs. I'm still sad & I still have those days when it's almost more than I can handle.
i used to think a few months ago that my H was hitting bottom but he didn't. yesterday was the worst we have ever seen him.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
Thank you for the vote of confidence. I am getting a few things done around here. So that is good. If I don't get the house cleaned today I will have to do that tomorrow if I do get it cleaned I would like to lay out in the sun a little while if it's not too hot. H & I used to do that but I've done it a few times since he has been gone & it's just relaxing, plus I get a little tan.
I'm trying hard & I'm still praying & also praying for my H.
I just found out from a friend of mine that I'm still in the running for the job. Corp. has not given them any guidelines for a salary yet so they are not able to hire anyone until they get that.
Yes, I'm some better today. I'm still in disbelief that he has married this OW, but I haven't completely given up on him yet. I'm not dwelling on it b/c I know it is in God's hands. I believe this woman is a pro & brain washed him, everything he has done so far it not like him at all!
I just keep praying!
Thank you for sending rain! I sure do need it bad!!! They said we might get a little from Hurricane Faye but they really doubt it, I think we are too far north.
I hope you have a great weekend, thank you for checking in on me!
I just worked on getting things a little more organized around here. So that help me to feel better.
I did get an email from the man that I interviewed with & he apologized for it taking so long, he said what my friend told me that they were waiting on corp. to decide on the salary budget. So, hope I'll know something next week.
I have a headache but other than that I'm doing ok. Like I said I feel more at peace about things, not really sure why but I do & I don't think about H being married much but also I haven't given up either. I'm just trying not to dwell on it & whatever is God's will, it's in his hands!
I'm sure I will have more days that I melt down but at least you all are here for me & will let me vent.
Thank you so much. I would not have made it this far if it had not been for everyone on this site!
I'm glad you're doing a little better. It is a rollercoaster with our emotions. I agree - thank God for this site. Most of us would not have made it this far if it weren't for this site.
I am also keeping my fingers crossed for you regarding the job.
Me47 H46 S13 M16 Piecing since May/09
"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz
Like I said I really haven't given up on my H just yet, but I'm trying to work on me right now & then if it happens I'll be ready. I think right now I have to feel this way as time moves on then it might be different.
I hope you are doing well? I'll check out your thread.
