God give me the patience and the strength...6

[theotherhalf]

Thanks for all the ideas. And yes, I am working on that. First I have to find the drive. Painting is the one thing that comes to mind when thinking of things to do. I love it, I'm good at it (sorry, not bragging), and I could make some money at it. But I've lost the drive. The idea is still there.

What I was saying is that what I need right now is someone to talk to. To work through this crazy mess. To keep me from talking to H. To keep me from asking him what the heck is going on. He's got my head spinning that's for sure. I don't get it. I have backed off. I am leaving him alone. I have stopped all contact. During the week I hear nothing out of him. Friday rolls around and here he is. Last night he shows up on the bike around 7. For no reason. And he knew the girls were in town so it wasn't to see them. We just talked (well I listened, alot). He went and checked cows. Then back again. Here a couple of hours I guess. Then it's so damb hard when he leaves.

Totally MHO. If he was not talking to OW, I would totally think that he is trying to work his way back home. But he is, (still talking to her) so I'm so confused.