I have been off the boards lately, for the most part. But, I wanted you to know I'm still here and thinking about you. I keep up with your thread from time to time, so I think you are doing fantastic under the circumstances. How does it feel to be home?
Also, YoYo, I don't know if you're still reading Stella's thread, but I wanted to piggyback my comments onto your post because I think it would be good for everyone, me, you, Stella ... I just wanted to add, that I think we are all in similar places right now with our emotions (at least it seems that way, when our registration dates are similar)."Do you give up and move on or do you keep DBing? Right now I choose to keep DBing."
Here are my thoughts:
I am continuing to DB, but I am also giving up on the R. My H is so much darker now then he was at the beginning of all this, and I am tired. Tired of waiting, tired of doing for him, tired of expecting, tired of the emotional rollercoaster. I told him the other night that he was right, way back, when he said "...there is no healing." I have given up, dropped the rope and seen the light. I am moving on. That's what he wants me to do. He has said it, so many times, and I believe him now. I'm moving on. But, if a miracle were to happen and he wants to work on the M ... well, we'll never know, I guess, until it happens.
