W and I moving forward trying not to look back #4

[Lanzo]

Its been 12 months now since I first lurked around on this site and then decided to take the plunge and post my story here. I had spent the previous 2 months on another forum pouring my heart out, and whilst I received plenty of words of sympathy there were no was no real advice on how to take things forward. It was actually via the previous site that I found DB and I can honestly say DB didn't save my M, it actually saved me. In saving me it gave me the tools to move things forward and work on my M and hope fully become a better person.

I received lots of great advice but in the early days but it was Forrest Gump (aka FG, Cory) who showed me how to put things into practice and to help me, understand me, and the ways of the WAW. Also Sandi who is still with me now who gave me loads of comforting words, these words stopped me doing anything really stupid when I really felt down. There was also Puddlemuddle Snafu (Joan S) she help me a lot but she disappeared from the board as soon as her M got back on track, I hope she's still doing well.

12 months on how are things, well the first thing is that they are loads better, are things perfect, no. Will they get back to how they were, I hope not. The good thing is I now have experience and the foresight to see problem situations as they arise and know how to deal with them. I now find it easy to read a lot of sitches and know exactly what to do to move things on which is one of the reasons that I am still here, I just want to give back a little to those that are still in need. I am also still here cos for me DB will be for life cos I don't ever want to get back to where I was.

Back to today not much to report, home improvements drag on, but the builder is working on other jobs, presumably cos they pay out this week, I'm just doing some tidying up. I've spent the last couple of nights over at the IL's with W, she wants me in bed with her but nothing more. D6 doen't want me in bed with W and has already warned me "No Kissing" Other than that things are just ticking along, however this is far more than I would have expected 12 months ago.

Thanks to all those others who have help me and to those who have just read and followed.

Lanzo