This could be it...

[Mojones]

I have posted on here that I have been feeling this overwhelming feeling that my h is up to something. He has had some text messages to a woman on his phone.I got a hold of his phone tonight. He was planning on seeing this person but said he couldn't because it was his anniversary to which she replied "yikes glad you remembered," Nothing innappropriate except that there were two separate mentions of my h supposed to be meeting up with these women...maybe as friends I don't know and i don't care. He lies to me.I can't say anything to him.

I am afraid of how I feel right now. It is somewhere between crazed, anxious, sad, angry and like I just want to be committed. I would never kill myself but it hurts so bad...I want to hurt myself or him or them I just want to know where I stand once and for all...I think i know. If he doesn't love me why is he here? How can he do this to me? If I call him on this he will leave me and yet what does it say about me if I let it go? I can't confront him in the right way..so I ignore it...and I become ignorant once again. I am freaking out right now. i know other peoples stories are very bad too so I am sorry to be so selfish...people don't always respond to me but I really need someoone. i am coming from raw emotion right now and I don't know what to do. It feels like D day.