Any day now

[Nature Girl]

I wanted to vent, but after replying to everyone, I have calmed down somewhat. So I guess I'll journal a bit and some venting might surface.

H had the kids Monday and Tuesday nights. I worked late and kept myself busy.

Wednesday night the kids and I went out for sushi after D's practice.

Thursday I picked the kids up from camp and we came home. S asked if he could call Dad to see if he picked up the Wii for his place and I hear him ask H to come over to play street hockey. S hangs up and says "I invited Dad over to play street hockey." I just said that's great.

H shows up not much later, he plays with the kids and I ask if he wants to stay for dinner and he does.

Earlier in the week we had planned (actually, he had told me the plan and I agreed) that I would have the kids Friday night and he would get them mid-day Saturday and have them for Saturday night. Today he calls me at work and says "what do you want to do about this weekend? do you want them one night and I'll have the other?" I said "yes, you told me I'd have them tonight and you'd have them Saturday night." He says "okay" then a pause "oh....I have this client party Saturday at 4:30. Maybe it would work better if I have them tonight and then you can have them Saturday night. Unless you have plans with them tonight...I could get them later on Sat, like at 6 or something."

I had no plans so I agreed. But I was kind of PO'd that he had to change it all after he was the one to make the weekend plans in the first place. I got over it.

Then, he had picked up the kids from camp and taken D to practice today. I had to swing by at the end of practice to give a form to the coach and I wanted to give the kids hugs and kisses since I had planned to be with them tonight and the plans were changed on me. As we were walking away from practice, H is asking the kids if they want to go to a certain restaurant. Right in front of me without asking me to join them!!!!!

He claims we "are best friends" and he knows I wouldn't have plans since I had planned on being with the kids and yet he talks about where to go for dinner while I am standing there. I don't think he was trying to hurt me on purpose, but it hurt, A LOT. It was insensitive.

It did make me realize that my H is naturally insensitive. He used to come home from work and tell me how the support staff at the firm always calls him insensitive. He could be very loving and caring for me and my feelings, but he could be insensitive many times to me even in the best of times.

His other good qualities always made up for that with me. I loved him.