Well, it was only in June/July that H stopped contacting me altogether and we only saw each other three times in 6 weeks, had very limited e-mail contact that was short and formal and I didn't know what he was up to or where he was. I was fine then, and I would be again- my happiness doesn't depend on him, but having good interactions with him is a plus. I'm not saying it'd be easy, but I'd get through it and come out OK.
I don't think the buoyancy is coming from the interactions with H- it's because I feel generally busy and fine in myself- work's going well, I'm GAL a lot and my life is moving forwards. I feel about the interactions with H as I do when I try and experiment and get a good result. It doesn't mean I stop the experiment- means I try the experiment again and increase my confidence in it. Similarly if the experiment didn't work, I'd just assess my protocol, tweak it and try again, a la Eddison inventing the lightbulb (he famously quoted that he'd found 10000 ways not to do it).
H not contacting me wouldn't mean the end (for me). It'd just mean I need to leave him alone and try and think of alternative strategies- tweak my protocol until I'm successful.
That was a very long answer when maybe only a short response was required. Anyway, hope it helps!
L. xx
PS. ((((Jeff))))) Yes- I'm detached. You know me so well!
