H and I met for lunch today. He mailed me this morning to ask when I wanted to meet and we got together and walked around looking for a restaurant. In the end H chose a bar, and I validated his choice. We had a really nice lunch- usual topics of conversation so I won't reiterate. In the end I didn't have to be too peeved- H raised some things himself so I just responded and agreed with the same energy level.
One interesting thing H brought up: he'd seen 2 jobs in the North in his field where he'd get good pay. We talked about his plans to move out of London (which he/we always had pre bomb). This led to me validating and agreeing that moving out of London was a good plan, and being peeved about my tube journey (which, in fairness, is not the most pleasant thing). H's parents live near Liverpool, so we talked about how it was a good place to live in general.
I asked H if we were going to do something next Thursday (our wedding anniversary). He looked a bit caught in headlights (I suggested a car experience or a speedboat trip). Then I said he didn't have to reply immediately, and apologised in case I'd pre-empted him arranging something. Then moved on (won't be trying to suggest an anniversary outing again )
At the end of the meal we were just looking at each other, right in the eyes for longer than 'just friends'. It was nice. I looked away first as he was making my tummy flip flop with his beautiful gorgeousness. Then we walked back to the station. I commented on his trousers making his bottom look sexy- advice from DB Coach. As we walked, my arm was linked through his and a couple of times we just caught each others' eye again and smiled. At one point I was talking to him about how funny it'd be if he had a pet elephant. He was laughing a lot, which was good and I said I thought I needed a fake pet of my own (Austin has a squirrel who eats Cheerios, and work colleague a raccon). H said I should have a monkey and laughed (he used to call me Monkey as a term of endearment).
Said goodbye with a short hug (H sighed while he was hugging me and I asked if I'd squeezed to tightly), and a kiss on the cheek. This afternoon we exchanged about 5 e-mails about links on Youtube and what I was up to. It was nice and I enjoyed it- I hope he did too. I went to the pub with my colleague for a couple of drinks (suggested H come in a jokey way but didn't expect him to and he didn't respond to it) and then came home.
H is seeing BIL on Monday and said he 'wasn't doing much' the rest of the weekend when I asked what he was up to. That's fine- a euphemism for aubergine. I said I was going to the driving range on Monday and tried to demonstrate my swing (not easy in a mini skirt and boots). H then said it'd be better if I wasn't wearing my skirt, to which I replied that if he was coming I was willing to go naked. He laughed and I did too (except that I was deadly serious )
I don't expect to hear from him over the weekend but might text him to let him know my thoughts on the Youtube link he sent me and see what happens. Feeling positive as it was my goal this week for H to hold eye contact with me.
How are you guys? I hope you have stunning weekends planned.
L. xx
PS> Al- forgot to reply to this in my last post. Yes, I don't know what's in H's mind. At this stage, though, I'd have to say I'm not too bothered. If he wants me, great- I'm here. And if he doesn't I've got two bankers and my CEO hanging around and H can carry on hanging out with his scientist non-PhD aubergine. Ha!
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