I'm back after a long absence

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amazing how emotions can jump around, I was doing pretty well and then realized that H will be home soon and now I am getting nervous. I need to not do that, why do I make such a big deal, it is like I have to plan out the interaction and figure out what I should say. I need to just relax, just be, stop analyzing every motion and word, it is making me crazy, i don't need to be any more crazy than I already am.

pep talk to myself I can do this, I will be fine, i will be good even, take care of me me me me me me and my kids be strong for them and for your self. make the positive changes let go of negativity it never helps positive positive positive

change what you have control over, nothing else in in your hands.

arghhhhh