New Thread, new life, new happiness

[HopefultotheEnd]

Thank you to all posted in my I need help thread.

I sorted myself out, ran the errand with her and it was fine. Better than fine even. I'll elaborate starting with last night:

I came home and found W in her PJ's rummaging around looking for some of her things. She was really talkative about her new jobs and whatnot so just I listened. I kept pretty much to necessary topics while she would elaborate some, I would just listen. After about an hour I wanted to get on with my night and to be honest I was kinda starting to feel stressed having her there digging through stuff. Plus right about the time she found some old photo's of us and was saying, "awe, those were the days." I started to get the urge to say something to her. We joked about me wanting her to go and she eventually got her stuff and left. While I was relieved and didn't hug her goodbye I sure wanted to.

So this morning I was feeling put out that she only calls me if she needs me to do something for her or if she wants to claim weekend days. It is my nature to help people but I don't want to be taken advantage of. I feel good about how things went down and your input really helped so, thanks again.

Things really fell into place for this. I was freed up early for lunch, picked up my motorcycle, and made it to the shop way before W (she's ofter on her own time. no worries)

I really feel that I was channeling super confidence as I explained to her how to be a passenger on a bike. She really relaxed and asked if I had ever had a passenger before and I said yes. Ride to her house went great, I've always wanted to give her a ride so I just enjoyed it. I especially laughed at how I could tell when she got nervous by how tight she squeezed me with her thighs. LOL We get to her house after stopping for sandwitches and were out of time. I start to say goodbye and she looks at me and asks "who did you have on the back of your bike." I look at her back and say, "It's no matter, I should get going...She say's, It was a girl wasn't it." so I just look back at her and shrug. She then walks over to me and says thanks and that she really really apreciated the help, gives me a hug and then kisses me on the neck. I played it off as cooly as I could and gave her a peck back. She said she had fun and for me to ride safe and we left.

So I won't read anything into things other that she seemed to respond well to my confidence. That and she was jealous that she wasn't the first one to ride on the back of my motorcycle. So the best part is that I enjoyed myself even thought it was a bit stressful and I played it off as being cool and confidant (much like I would have when we were first dating.) I am careful to not loose track of the fact that she has still made some really bad choices but overall I like the confidant me, I think I'll keep him around.