H4H today I stopped by, after long time, to see how you are doing. It seems that unfortunately you are still struggling. I understand what you are going through - at this point it is pure pain. It is very hard to let go, I am still asking STBXW if she is REALLY SURE about the D (she is). At some point we just need to find the strength and let go. I am not say you need to give up(I am not giving up either), but we need to find happiness somewhere else. I think that if you have somebody that wants to date you, you should go for it. Just be sincere with them and GO FOR IT! Other people that went on this path told me how being with a new date cleaned their mind from the fog of the pain. The pain is still there, but you start seeing things differently. I don't know if it is true, didn't date yet, but I heard that more then once. For the kids not to have a unite family is going to suck, it is not your fault - an happier dad is better then a miserable one anyway - and if in the future you are going to connect again with W - wonderful.
