Back to life, back to reality,

[Survival_Goddess]

Hi Queenie! Thanks for the good wishes!
Hi Karen! Yeah, I am not that thrilled about the location, but who knows?

Happy Friday Friends!

Well, I had a pretty bad day yesterday. I just could NOT get motivated to tackle my growing "to do" list. I have a big class that needs to get planned. And some other work that needs to be done.

I have been telling myself that the procrastination that I have been doing is all part of my "process"...in other words, I am thinking deeply about the class, the issues, the pedagogy, etc. I am really honored to be teaching a graduate level class at a University. I want it to be a good use of my student's time. I want them to get as much out of it as I got out of it when I took it.

However, it has been SO HARD to just "get 'er done". Yesterday as I sat by my pond and looked around, I realized how many memories the house holds. Many of them are hard memories. It seems sometimes that when I am home I get paralyzed and overwhelmed.

Today marks the 2 week point for the ADs.

My friends don't see me as a depressed person. They see me as accomplished and social. And I am, when I am out and about. But when I am home it is a different story. I don't want external events to have such an influence on my internal reality! I started thinking that maybe a move might be what will kick me into action...a way to move into the next phase of "GAL"

I had my usual Thursday night dinner w/D'd girlfriends. We were discussing what makes a successful marriage. One of them is an engineer. She was asking us Socratic questions about what are the commonalities of good marriages. In my parents case, they adored each other and had shared goals and values. They both wanted the same things in life and worked together and with each other to build that common vision. We couldn't come up with any one definitive answer!

Well meetings today and some work needs to be done to get ready.
It is only noon! Time to get going...

Best,
SG