Fat man sitting on a little stool Takes the money from my hand while his eyes take a walk all over you Hands me the ticket smiles and whispers good luck Cuddle up angel cuddle up my little dove Well ride down baby into this tunnel of love
I can feel the soft silk of your blouse And them soft thrills in our little fun house Then the lights go out and its just the three of us You me and all that stuff were so scared of Gotta ride down baby into this tunnel of love
Theres a crazy mirror showing us both in 5-d Im laughing at you youre laughing at me Theres a room of shadows that gets so dark brother Its easy for two people to lose each other in this tunnel of love
It ought to be easy ought to be simple enough Man meets woman and they fall in love But the house is haunted and the ride gets rough And youve got to learn to live with what you cant rise above if you want to ride on down in through this tunnel of love
God Bless Bruce
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I had a conversation with her yesterday through text. I sent her at text during the day just asking how she was getting along. I didn't get a reply until yesterday evening. She said, "hey you" and then told me she hadn't been feeling very well, had been dizzy and lightheaded most of the day, but was able to shower. She told me she was watching the olympics with her parents. I was watching it at the same time and diving was on. I told her I decided that I could be an olympic diver. She asked if it was because I was skinny, or because I was gay. I told her she should know I'm not gay...lol. She said she was teasing me. I replied by saying that i knew she was and I'd look good in a speedo. I didn't get a response which wasn't a big deal.
This morning I wake up to a text from her that she sent at 5am. She said she had tried to get me to wear a speedo for years and then said she'd hate to be a guy and get aroused wearing one of those. Then she said, "BTW...aaron is here this weekend."
That's when I realized that she was chatting with me while he was there and I thought about how some of the people here talk about their spouses having sneaky text conversations and things while they are around. It bothered me. So I won't be talking to her this weekend because of that.
I don't know what to do, because I don't want to be a jerk and not talk or respond to her at all, but I don't want to talk to her enough that she can be attached through an EA. I already told her that we wouldn't be ML anymore.
The more I think about how things have went since October, the more I realize that it's not meant to be. After going through what I went through with my divorce, I have had zero tolerance for people that have affairs. That's exactly what she is doing, and I don't want any part of it. When I broke up with her in October, she went and spent a weekend at her exboyfriends house. I found out just recently that she ML to him then. She continued to talk to him some after that while we were spending a lot of time together. I questioned her about it and she told me they were nothing more than friends. You don't go ML to just a friend. Sorry.
Letting go and moving on is hard, because I feel lonely and empty, but I know that it's what I have to do. Even if she does dump this guy, I don't know if I even want her back. Not now.
FLoyd The grass is always GREENER over the septic tank.
That is a very insightful decision. I know this hurts, but I think you are right. I found out my H was doing the same thing when we split, I guess I should have known when he stopped coming up to bed with me on his nights off. He was calling and texting his EA. It is very painful and no one deserves. You are a great guy and deserve someone who loves you AND respects you. I am not sure she is showing respect to you or Aaron right now. She is cake eating.
Is cutting off all contact something you want to do?
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I don't know that I want to cut off all contact. It's probably best that I do though. It is a hard choice to make, and I'm not completely sure that I want to do it, but that's the direction that I am headed. I'm feeling like I'm just being walked on, and I don't like it.
Last week I was thinking a lot about asking this girl out that my dad is trying to set me up with. I had decided to put it off for a bit for several reasons. Football season is starting for my boys and I help coach with that, so I'm pretty much tied up in that right now, plus all of the other stuff.
I've been thinking a lot about asking her out this weekend, and I think that when I get settled in to the new busy schedule, I will...sometime this week.
My dad keeps bugging me about it. I honestly had kind of blown it off, but my dad told me she asked him the other day when I was going to call. I had figured it was kind of a sympathy thing when he asked her if he could give me her number and she said yes. I guess she was actually interested, so I'll give it a shot.
FLoyd The grass is always GREENER over the septic tank.
I say go for it Floyd!!! It def will keep your mind off of XW and give you a good reason to not always be there when she calls.
Your XW seems to be taking advantage of the fact that you still care for you and is keeping you trailing along even though she has obviously moved on. Don't take this wrong but she seems like a very needy person with low self esteem and keeps roping you in to fed her ego.
Floyd I think you should give her a call!!! But do it soon...she is obviously interested and if you wait too long, she might not be anymore!
Remember, you deserve to be happy.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I wish I had time to post the whole weekends events. I tried to a few minutes ago and had to do something else and lost it.
Basically, she kept texting me all weekend while her NG was at her house. She told me Saturday night that she was having second thoughts about everything. She said she wanted to get together sunday evening to talk, so I agreed. We met for dinner and chatted a bit. She told me she thinks he's closet gay, she just gets that vibe from him. She also told me that I'm making it hard on her, because she tries not to compare him to me, but she can't help it.
There's a lot more detail than that, but I'm swamped today.
FLoyd The grass is always GREENER over the septic tank.
